Declaring hiatus until 8th December 09.
28 days more to SPM, barely a month left.
I'll be back in 2 months more.
Unless I get sick of blogging which I highly doubt.
Till then, annyong.
P.s.
Youtubing SUJU till 4am is lovee.
Today was the last day of tuition; EVER. I mean like seriously, no more having to wake up at 7am all pissy and hungry and starve till 7pm later. No more having to hear my tuition teachers' lame jokes. No more rude assholes staring at you as if you rob their family and cause them to live in poverty. No f-ing more.
In a month plus, it will all be over. No more school uniforms, no more teachers telling you to hand up your work, no more horrible canteen food to complain about, no more distorted field to fall down at, no more people coming up to your face saying your hair is pointing upwards.
Can you believe it, that it has been five years already? Ugh, I'm going to miss so many people very much. It seems like everything happened not too long ago; it feels like just yesterday we were orientated in the Badminton Hall to our form 1 classes; it feels like just yesterday we were shown around Bukit Bintang. But one thing is for sure, the memories we had in Bukit Bintang; no matter how sickening it made us and no matter how painful our stomach was from laughing will always be remembered.
Those times that we;
- fought about stupid things but then later on laughed about it together.
- bitched about people in general.
- laughed our asses off making fun of nearly everything.
- stoned hours and hours doing nothing.
- talked about everything and anything until school was over.
will always be a reminder
will always always be apart of us.
Oh and I'll do a tribute to everyone soon (:
A month more till SPM.
A month more till Graduation.
A month more to freedom.
Sheer bliss
posted by Ashwin Assokan. at 12:20 AM |
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I went out with Hani, Joanna and Shen a while back and we played Truth or Dare. No dare because they wouldn't do any of my dares. Pfft, losers. Anyways, I found out that my friends are sick, teehee. Fine, cause my questions were sick but still! And all our questions were related to sex ; and only Joanna and I asked - the other two were controlling their macho-ness. However, we did have fun tormenting each other's thoughts.
Oh and I cannot believe that I have been living for 17 years (uh-huh, I'm finally 17) and I have never eaten at Carls Jr before. I feel like the 40 year old virgin, only that I'm the 17 year old Carls Jr virgin. Well no longer, it was like heaven on Earth. I feel fat now, pfft yeah right.
I got a new bag, I love it very much. Gonna use it everywhere now, it looks a bit like Minho's bag ; the brown leather one. I bought a black cardigan, shutup! You know how much I adore cardigans. Oh SPM is around the corner when SPM comes. Right now, I just do not give a damn anymore about it. I want to get it over with so that I can get away from school.
Speaking of getting away from school ; I have decided to extend my holidays to three weeks so I shall not be attending school until 20th+ October. Teehee, I am just too comfortable at home ; studying and doing anything I want alone. The best part of it all is that ; I can do and wear whatever I want whenever I want. No rules and regulations, blah.
Oh and I cannot believe that I have been living for 17 years (uh-huh, I'm finally 17) and I have never eaten at Carls Jr before. I feel like the 40 year old virgin, only that I'm the 17 year old Carls Jr virgin. Well no longer, it was like heaven on Earth. I feel fat now, pfft yeah right.
I got a new bag, I love it very much. Gonna use it everywhere now, it looks a bit like Minho's bag ; the brown leather one. I bought a black cardigan, shutup! You know how much I adore cardigans. Oh SPM is around the corner when SPM comes. Right now, I just do not give a damn anymore about it. I want to get it over with so that I can get away from school.
Speaking of getting away from school ; I have decided to extend my holidays to three weeks so I shall not be attending school until 20th+ October. Teehee, I am just too comfortable at home ; studying and doing anything I want alone. The best part of it all is that ; I can do and wear whatever I want whenever I want. No rules and regulations, blah.
I have issues, amen.
posted by Ashwin Assokan. at 8:57 PM |
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She turned over to her partner beside her and smiled, looking at how much effort he puts in making her name look so perfect and enchanting on his book. He looked up and saw her looking at him, he stared at her and smiled. She smiled back and said "Oh Ashhy boo, you are such a perfectionist!" He looked up and smiled "Oh really? And what makes you say that?" She giggles and points at his notebook "My name! It looks way prettier than it should be." He looked and grinned "Ah, but you're prettier than you should be." They stared at each other and laughed, noticing that the teacher diverted the whole class's attention towards them.
But that seems to be just a distant dream now, I can't help but wonder does she miss me even a tiny winny bit? Tossing and turning in bed, irritated with the lack of cold air in the room despite the air conditioner being at 16 degrees. I've been doing too much thinking lately, and like he said, I should stop thinking. I should be a dumb blonde, like seriously.
Anyways, I have two weeks of holidays well two days are self-declared holidays but the rest of it are official and legal holidays. Crashing on my bed at 4am everyday is a must, no I do not nerd out until then. I spent my time watching shows like Made, The Simspons and whatever's that currently on or I would be up reading storybooks. The voice niggling at the back of my head is even louder and it's actually helping me with everything. It puts my mood in coherent sentences, yes it describes the feelings I'm going through.
Prom is coming up after SPM which is pure bliss - I tell you. After having to deal with the exams, I would need to get a date for prom. I might not go for it, teehee. We'll just see how everything goes, who knows? Maybe my princess is just waiting for me to call or maybe she'll be waiting for me at the prom itself. Teehee, then there's the college crap. I still haven't choosen my future career. It's cruel that we have to pick courses that we major in that could affect our future careers. Shrugs.
Where is that "Life for Dummies" book when you need it?!
Where is that "Life for Dummies" book when you need it?!
He looked at her and said, "I love you, you know that right?" She nodded and said, "I love you more though." He laughed and looked at her, "I highly doubt it honey." and before she could protest - he cut her off saying, "Go on, you don't want to make him wait for you. It is your first date!" She smiled and nodded - hugging him, "I love you Ash! I'll call you later, I promise!" He smiled and hugged her back, "Oh you better!"
Does he make you smile the way I make you smile?
Then again, as long as you are happy.
Then I am happy too. Heeee.
Then again, as long as you are happy.
Then I am happy too. Heeee.
P.s.
You told me to live for the moment,
I told you to be happy,
And I still do mean it,
When I say - you should move on,
posted by Ashwin Assokan. at 4:31 PM |
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The more I try to untangle the knots on my heart, it becomes tighter and I slump myself on the couch regretting the second I even thought of thinking I can fix my problems myself. The knots are now, what do boyscouts call them? Ah yes, dead-knots. No, I'm not into the wilderness and I'm sure the wilderness hates me just as much. I regret it now, thinking that ever so delicately I can remove those tight knots. Now, it has become worse and it's all my fault.
The voice inside my head is booming louder than ever, is it my heart screaming for help or is it my brain silencing my heart and its constant rambling ; that's something I'm unsure about but one thing's for sure, it's very loud. I think thoroughly before doing or saying anything, even replying text messages. I think about the outcomes of saying this and that before pressing the send button. Most times, I don't even press the send button. Why? It's because I'm scared of what might happen.
The other day, my family and I excluding Jessie went to a book sale and I bought around 5-6 books. I think I'm actually stocking up on books for after SPM. I know after SPM, people would not even want to glance at a book for at least a week or two later but shrugs, it's just this nagging voice that keeps telling me to be ready for the worst. Lately, I've been sitting on this green sofa of mine, with hot Nescafe and accompanied by my ever-loving History book and trusty highlighter.
I've been watching tons of movies with my sisters lately, at the stroke of midnight I'm still in the living room with Jessie and Vivianna watching the numerous discs that Daddy had purchased the day before. Hmm, I do believe that I won't be updating very often anymore. Because of SPM and my need to do other things.
Things I need right now ;
- I need to clear my mind from all this negativity.
- I need to get away from my revision books just a day ; this Friday's the day *beams happily*
- I need my social life back, I've been neglecting my friends and their feelings. Shrugs, I've also been neglecting my needs.
- Head to the gym, gotta get a terrific body for my baby.
- Enroll in classes ; language preferably.
- Write a fanfic for Krystle noona.
- Read all the 9 un-read books I have.
- Catch up on my social life.
- Clean up my room ; probably repaint it into a different colour.
- Oh, and work ;)
I've to go and visit my darling Add Maths book now.
Bye and have an awesome holiday!
(For the form 5s & 6s)
Oh and good luck to all PMR candidate, may God bless you.
posted by Ashwin Assokan. at 4:19 PM |
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Look in the mirror, she said. & be proud that you've grown into an excellent specimen.
I've waited so long to just express how I am feeling right now. So much effort had been splurged on just contenting my anger. To control it, to keep it in that tiny shimmering glass bottle I kept in a closet deep deep in my heart. My heart is telling me "Ash, please let it out. I'm dying here. Ash please. Release it!" My brain is saying "No, you shouldn't! Imagine what people would say about you! Believe me, no one is going to help you in this." Which should I listen to?
She said "Follow your heart" & she left me when I did just that.
posted by Ashwin Assokan. at 5:52 PM |
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Hello there fellow readers,
I have finally turned seventeen years old and no, I shan't act my age! I'm a year from being legal, thus I'm happy! I can finally do what adults are allowed to do, you know *blush* No, it isn't sexual intercourse. Anyways, I wanna thank everyone who wished me via facebook, face-to-face, calls, and also text messages. And, I would also like to thank everyone who gave me presents. It was truly a memorable day.
Despite having to sit for Moral and Biology paper that very same day, I was cite that it was our last day of trials but it would be also our last day of exams together as a class. Oh well, after trials we went to Mcdonalds to celebrate my birthday. Like aw :') Thank you guys so much, I had tons of fun.
Thank you guys, and the three unknown chicks who sang Happy Birthday for me. Sho sweet. I would really wanna elaborate it longer with tons of pictures but I can't seem to upload pictures from my phone so yeah. Trust me, when I say I had fun!
Thank you guys, and the three unknown chicks who sang Happy Birthday for me. Sho sweet. I would really wanna elaborate it longer with tons of pictures but I can't seem to upload pictures from my phone so yeah. Trust me, when I say I had fun! P.s.
So happy you wished me,
I'm so loved. (:
Labels: Birthdays, Saving the world., Smudged Cakes
posted by Ashwin Assokan. at 5:42 PM |
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Annyonghaeseyo,
I woke up at 10am today to only glare at my alarm, yes I glared at my alarm forgetting that inanimate objects do not glare back. Having realise that I was being a bimbo in the morning, I decided to do the most productive thing I could have thought of that time ; I went back to bed! My mum woke me up and we headed off to get my hair done. It took me a whole hour and the dude's cologne was so strong that I still could smell it an hour later! But, I like my hair. I'm sure my teachers would not approve because it stands up. I'm going to try to comb my hair to look like Taemin's old mangkuk hair.
Later, I went to SunwayPyramid with Fai & we went to watch Tsunami in somethingsomething. What?! I can't remember the title of the movie okay! It's a Korean movie and it was so sad. I cried, I don't usually cry so it was really sad. Then we went to eat sushi at Sushi King. Is it just me or are all the workers in Sushi King rude and ignorant? Then, we went to take pictures at Asian Avenue.
Things I realised ;
- I might be in a group of 12-20 people but I only tell several of my friends things. Only 5 actually. And 4 of them are not even in my group.
- If I'm in a group of people who do not talk first, I would not say anything either. It's not egoistic, it's just the way I am.
- I'm shy in the sense, I don't talk to strangers and adults. They scare me, like hell. Especially people who look at me in a way.
- I'm mean and I like it, ngehehe.
As scary as it may be, I am not interested in anyone at the moment. I do not want to date anyone, I do not even want to flirt with anyone - maybe it's the hormones trying to balance themselves. I hate being seventeen years old. The gush of hormones make you feel all type of things. Every touch, every scent - gah!
Fyi, Yashantha Jayakumar raps ;
Yuki92yash says:
yash is sleeping
ash is weeping
God's are sweeping
frogs are leaping
the rain is falling
im singing
Ashwin Assokan ;] says:
O___________O
Fyi, I'm Hueynie's maltese ;)
Hueynie says;
in my honest opinion
im not
i was js jealous
sorry
you're hot but my bulldogs are hoter
*hotter
you come before megan fox but after my bulldogs!
Ashwin Assokan ;] says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!
so its like BULLDOGS, ASHWIN, MEGAN FOX?
AHAHHAHAHAHA
Other people get acne problems, social problems and normal things. I get weird friends but I laff them all to death. Oh god, thankyou for these wonderful losers you have gifted me with. HAHA. Now back to History and all its bullshits. Nights people (:
posted by Ashwin Assokan. at 1:17 AM |
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